Love Or Sin (Part : 25 The Confession)

After the shower, Manik was buttoning the shirt which she was wearing. His eyes were fixed at her face. He had just glanced at her naked body only for once, that too from behind when he had walked inside the washroom. After that, his eyes didn’t shift from her face. He didn’t want to look at her naked body without her permission.

She was staring at him blankly when he was buttoning the shirt. Her face became pale and dull. Her face was like a blooming flower for him but now her face had become like a withered flower. It was killing him deep inside, seeing her like this. Her eyes which used to sparkle like stars, those eyes were filled with pain and there was no shine had left in them.

“Better?” He asked after closing the last button. She just nodded her head slightly in response. Then he led her outside of the bathroom by holding her hand.

“Give me five minutes. I just come after changing my clothes.” He said after making her sit on the bed with the support of the pillow and covering her with the blanket. She just gave him a slight nod in response. He left after glancing at her.

Manik walked outside in a white T-Shirt and black joggers. He found her sitting with closed eyes resting her head on the headboard. His eyes became moist, but he composed himself and then strolled to her.

“Nandini,” he leaned down and called her, placing his hand over her shoulder. She flinched and her eyes shot up as his hand touched her shoulder. She sighed seeing his face.

“I am bringing lunch.” He told her.

“I will also come with you.” She said instantly removing the blanket because she was scaring to sit alone. Manik felt a sharp pain in his heart seeing this but he nodded his head after composing himself.

“Sir, give me ten minutes. The food is just about to get ready.” Sujata informed him as they stepped into the kitchen.

“We are sitting outside, bring there.” He instructed her and walked outside of the kitchen with Nandini.

They both were sitting at the dining table. He put one chapati in her plate and one in his plate. Then he put vegetable and dal in small bowls. She took the one bite.

“I am not feeling like to eat anything.” She uttered, looking at Manik who was already gazing at her.

“I can understand.” He spoke, placing his hand over her hand which was kept on the dining table.

“Even I am not feeling like to eat. But look I am eating. Just eat half of it..” he paused, “for me.” Both looked into each other eyes deeply. He brought the chapati close to her mouth and she instantly opened her mouth to eat. Both were still gazing in each other eyes intensely. Like this, he fed her full one chapati.

“I want to say something, Manik.” She uttered, breaking the silence when Manik was cleaning her face with tissue paper.

“Go ahead, I am listening.” He said, wiping his hands with the tissue.

“Please, don’t think that I am doing all this to come close to you.” He widened his eyes in shock after listening to her words. He wasn’t expecting these words from her but it was his fault only because that time to make her hate him, he had said those hurtful things to her.

“I-I-I just don’t know, what is happening to me? I am afraid to be alone. Trust me, I’m not doing this to come close to you. I never did this… I can never stoop so low.” She started crying. He felt guilty and regretting badly for his past deed. He was not understanding how to explain her why he had accused her earlier. She was not in the right state of mind to understand him. She could take the things in the wrong way. But he had to console her anyhow and make her believe that he trusted her.

“I know, Nandini, you can never do such cheap things because I trust you.” He clasped and pulled her face closer to himself. They gazed into each other eyes deeply. She was still shedding silent tears which he was wiping with his thumb constantly.

“I am sorry for whatever I said to you earlier. I am guilty of that. I didn’t mean a single word. I am really sorry.” He apologised from her and she was looking at him incredulously, having tears in her eyes.

“You said, you said that you hate me.” Whatever he had said to her yesterday, all those words were revolving in her mind again and again.

“Just take this thing out of your head that I hate you, please. I can never hate because I…” he paused and then continued, “whatever I did, I had my own reasons. You will get all your answers tonight. I promise you, Nandini, I will make everything fine. I just only want you to trust me.” After completing his words he kissed her forehead and she closed her eyes in response when his lips touched her skin. Then he kissed eyelids and she was shivering with his every kiss. His kisses took away all negative thoughts from her mind. It gave her relief. She felt better.

After that Manik took her inside and made her sleep again after giving her medicines. He did the arrangement for the night.

Nandini woke in the evening in his arms. He didn’t leave her alone for even a single second. He had done all the arrangements through his phone.

“How are you feeling?” He asked concernedly as she sat up on the bed after coming out of his arms.

“I am feeling better now. I am so thankful for whatever you did for me. I owe you. I don’t want to become a burden you anymore. I think, I should leave now.” She was about to leave the bed, but he stopped her by grabbing her arms. He pulled her closer himself.

“Stop calling yourself the burden. I am not doing any favour on you.” He became angry after listening to her words and shouted on her but her next words made shut his mouth.

“Then, why are you doing this?” As She asked, he closed his eyes after leaving her arms.

“You will get all your answers tonight, Nandini. You said that you owe me then give me your one night.” He spoke after taking a deep breath. She narrowed her brows in confusion.

“I am not understanding anything.” She shook her head.

“You are going on a date with me.”

“I don’t want to go anywhere.” She denied instantly.

“Please, It just the matter of one night.” He requested holding her one hand with his both hands and his eyes were pleading her to give him one night.

“Okay,” She agreed after staring in his eyes for a few minutes.

He got up and brought a red dress for her from the cupboard. He gave her that dress to her. “Wear this.”

“Why are you doing this? I am fine now.” She asked, thinking that she was fine because she wasn’t thinking about last night incident now.

“Who is saying that you aren’t fine? And you will get your all the answers tonight.” He placed his one hand on her face and gave her a small smile. She was saying to him that she was fine but he knew that she was not at all fine, but he didn’t want to break her heart by saying that she wasn’t fine.

“Now go and change your dress. I am here only.” She nodded her head and went to the bathroom to change.

She turned around after locking the door and looked at herself in the mirror. As she walked closer to the mirror, the marks on her neck became clear to her and tears welled up in her eyes. She touched the marks and cried badly after closing her eyes, recalling about last night incident, she couldn’t forget how those monsters were forcing themselves on her. They would have raped her if Manik hadn’t come and saved her on right time. The incident was making her weak with each passing second.

“It’s all over. I can never be same as before. They destroyed me. They made me dirty.” She cried badly, staring at herself in the mirror, clutching the dress which she was holding in her hands. She slumped down on the floor and cried in agony. The incident was revolving in her mind and she was feeling the same pain which she had gone through yesterday.


After crying for a few minutes, she was sitting holding her knees near to her chest and staring straight without even blinking her eyes. She was again thinking about only last night and going into darkness. Manik was getting restless outside. He was knocking the door while calling her, but she wasn’t even blinking her eyes.

“I shouldn’t have left her alone.” He scolded himself and opened the door by the spare key.

“Nandini…” He ran to her and knelt in front of her.

“Nandini, what happened?” He asked after cupping her face and made her look at him. She kept staring at him for a few minutes to make herself believe that he was sitting in front.

“I am not fine, Manik. I can never be fine again. It’s hurting a lot. I can’t take this. I need you. You won’t leave me, right?” She again started crying badly.

“Sh… I will never leave you. I promise you, Nandini. I will be there for you, always.” He touched his face with her face. Both closed their eyes and got lost in each other. After kissing her forehead and he made her stand up by holding her hand.

“You will be fine, Nandini. It will take time, but you will be fine and I am with you.” He reassured her after cupping her face. She was gazing in his eyes, trying to believe him.

“Now I am standing here only. Change your dress.” He stood facing his back to her and crossing his arms around his chest. Nandini opened the buttons of her shirt, looking at him. She picked up the dress from the floor and wore it after splashing the water on her face.

“It’s done.” Manik turned toward her, having a smile on his face.

“You are looking so beautiful.” He complimented her.

“You are lying.” He narrowed his brows.

“They made me dirty. I can never become beautiful like before.” She spoke dishearteningly, he was constantly nodding his head.

“Nandini, nobody can make your pure and beautiful soul dirty. These marks will fade away with time, don’t worry. You are still beautiful. Even you are beautiful for me with these marks also.” He tried to make her believe how beautiful she was. She didn’t respond, she just kept gazing at him incredulously.

“Now I will make you ready for tonight.” He led her to the dressing room and made her sit in front of the mirror. He was drying her hair with the hairdryer. She was just gazing at him through the mirror silently. She was not understanding why he was doing this for her if he didn’t love her.

He was now pressing her hair, smiling at her through the mirror. At last, kneeling in front of her, he made her wear the sandals.

“Now let’s go.” He held out his hand for her after standing up. She moved her eyes from his face to his hand, then she stood up, holding his hand, again looking at his smiling face.

“I just can’t wait anymore to tell you how much I love you.” He thought in his mind, looking at her.


He was taking her to the terrace and she was confused. He opened the door of the terrace and she was still looking at him. He gestured her to look inside. Her eyes twinkled a bit as she saw how beautiful the terrace was decorated with the lights and candles. He was admiring her. He was happy to see her eyes which were sparkling after so many days. He held her hand and took her to the place where a table and around it two chairs were kept under the shelter. He pulled out one chair for her and she sat down looking at him. He sat in front of her.

“It’s beautiful.” She uttered, breaking the silence and he smiled in response.

“Do you have any idea why I did all this ?” As he asked, she shook her head, having no clue why he was doing all this. She was confused.

“Today, I want to confess something.” He took her hand in his hands and caressed her knuckles with his thumbs. She was staring at him bemusedly.

“From the day my eyes fell over you, I fell in love with you. Yes, I love you, I love you a lot. My heart beats for you only. You are my shining star, Nandini. You are my star and I want to spend the rest of my life with my star. I am ready to fight from the whole world for you, for us. I can’t live without you anymore. You are first and last love of my life. My heart and my soul only wants you. You are the first girl who taught me what is true love.” He finally confessed and felt so relieved. He wanted to tell her so many things at that moment but first, he wanted to see her reaction. Nandini was staring at him in utter disbelief.

“Say something, please…” he pleaded, squeezing her hand lightly. As a tear rolled down her cheek, he felt a sharp in his heart. He wondered, did he say something wrong? He became nervous.


  1. Let’s naachooo.. 💃💃💃💃💃
    Shadi Mubarak… 👯👯👯💃💃💃💐💐 Confession ho gayi na aab dunia ulat v gayi to shadi v ho jayegi I know.. 😌😌😌
    Finally the confession has happened.. 🙃🙃👯👯💃💃💃💃
    Yeah proposal style simple tha, fast tha.. Less of words tha but at least in short usne nandu ko saab confess kr dia.. 😁😁😁
    Superb update.. Nice 1..


  2. Finally He Confessed😭💃
    But Nandu Last Reation Makes Me Sacred😣😥

    No words to describe the feeling i felt while reading this chapter☺

    Manik feelings were so amazingly portrayed and MaNan strong bond was touching my heart😢

    This Chapter Is Just Fabulously Awesome
    U Wrote so beautifully 😚😘

    U Rocking Girl🔥🔥
    May Allah Bless u💙

    Liked by 1 person

    • Finally like finally he confessed ❤️❤️ yayyyyyy!!!!!!😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻♥️♥️♥️😘😘😘😘
      But the way nandini is suffering is breaking my heart into pieces 💔💔💔😭😭😭 poor soul is going through so muchhh but hope this confession makes her come out of the trauma

      Liked by 1 person

  3. Oh god…😄

    Ok first let my mind be set🙈 yarrr how…. No tell me today HOW in the world you can do so???? Everytime I read this story something inside me just happens I don’t know what and why??☺☺ Errrr Maybe bcoz you are just fabulous and fantastic and mind blowing and what not 🤔🤔You just put life in these non living words that it seems like they speak themselves. And I know I had have already told you but still once again I’ll say that You Are The Bestest and one of The Finset Writer whom I have ever read… 💝 You can cross all of those perfect writers just by your words.😍😍 You are just more than awesome di😘…

    The way you showed Nandini’s emotions😭 The way she would be feeling, the pain and the grief under which she would be suffering 😑 It was just So Damm Real…😘 It was like everything is playing in front of me which makes me love You and This Story Way too Much..
    Seriously saying this Story Love Or Sin have and will always have that special place in my heart for which all the credit goes to YOU Bcoz it have everything from A to Z.. 😍😍😍 This will be my favorite story always and there is No Doubt in this…

    And the Most Loving Character is Manik no doubt Nandini too but Manik😍 well he is just 💝 . So so caring I just am in love with the way how he took care of Her.. How he made her understand that He is Always there for her, how he never left her for even a second. How he never let her break down He is just Perfect Life Partner anyone could get..😘😘😍💝😘.
    Nd then finally the confession part came😍 The way he Confessed His love with Not Much words only Pure Feelings with a simpler way 😘😍 that just took my heart away and He can’t be more perfect than this..💝💝 Can He ?? 😁 He is the Star of Nandini’s lyf who will heal her and I hope Soon coz now I am also missing that bubbly Nandini 😄..

    But I am afraid what will happen next🤔🤔 This Cliffhanger 😭😭 That’s very bad di you can’t do this lyk always 😄😄 Now m just in so much tension that what will Nandini say 🤔*biting my nails* Will she think that Manik is saying all this just to bring her back to normal and she will be hurt🤔🤔 Arghhhh..

    Leave it coz I know whatever will happen m gonna love the chapter 💝💝 As always just like this one… SO beaufully written chapter which I know must be difficult for you too but still you portrayed everything so beautifully 💝💝💝 And I can’t get enough of saying this to you that I Love You so Much for This Di and you Are Super se bhi Upar wali best 💝💝😘😘..

    Thanks for the update though 💝
    Love you..

    Yours Tanya😘😘😘😘

    Liked by 1 person

  4. Oh god…..

    No word to describe the feeling I felt while reading this chapter.. I feel like there is a Stone in my Heart…
    How did u do that, you have written so beautifully every emotions Manik nd Nandini goes through…

    This was one Fabulous chapter.. The emotions captured so perfectly.. I can feel for Manik.. I can feel for Nandini.. Their pain, their grief wonderfully described.. And Manik is a piller for her.. This was the one of best story which had managed to make a place in my heart.. 😍❤❤

    As always I am lack of words.. You are simple brilliant.. I am sure this must be the most difficult chapter for you to write
    till now, but fear not, you have done it excellently.. All the emotions are very beautifully written.. Hats off meri sweetu.. You just jumped all the way and set a very high standard as a writer for yourself.. Never ever doubt it.. Love u so much.. 😍😘😘

    Manik feelings were so wonderfully portrayed and Manik and Nandini strong bond was touching as usual..

    You are every plot is written so beautifully.. The way manik was care for her such a pure Moment.. Nd manik ne one glance bhi nandini ko naked nai dekha.. Manik ka nandini ke liye pure love hai..Nd vo bhut darr gyi hai bad incidents se..The understanding here is so beautiful.. ❤❤

    The entire lunch scene was so amazing.. I loved it the way manik nandini ko feed kara raha tha seems like Husband nd wife.. 🙊😍

    I read the entire update with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes.. Heartbreakingly beautiful update.. This was so heart breaking scene when nandini said “don’t think that I am doing all this coming close to you” Poor nandini.. 🙁🙁

    Very emotional and heart wrenching part.. though manik was healing nandini about the last bad incident, I loved it that he care for her, love her, but now one question manik ne jo bhi bola usse nandini par bhut affect pada.. I know manik ne nandini se dur jaane ke liye bola tha but situation ne koi or hi turn le liya.. Vo bolte hai na ki kisi ko kuch bhi bolne se pehle sochna chahiye kya bol rahe hai.. Nd I know manik poori tarah se nandini ko console bhi kar lega.. He loves u n trust u so much nandini.. Never doubt his love.. Manik chah kar bhi tmse hate nai kar skta hai.. Coz manik ko tmse love at first sight hua.. 😍❤

    Can’t see nandini like this.. Right now nandini manik ne jo kiya reason se kiya, But nandini you are so lucky.. Nd this soothing kiss was bliss for her.. ❤❤❤

    She’s much sacred nd snuggling manik like a innocent child bcoz manik care for her.. Nd manik single moment ke liye bhi akela nai chhod rha hai.. I loved the way manik comfort nandini by being her side.. Kbhi kbhi nandini bhi wrong words bol deti hai.. She is his life that one line proved it “Stop calling yourself burden…… ” This says all.. Because she is his strength, his light, his trust.. Please nandini jb itna understand karti ho toh just one night n give one moment.. Everything clear ho jayega.. Manik ki real feeling pta chal jayegi..

    Aww manik is so sweet nandini ki aise care kar rha jaise uski mom 😍😍
    Loved the scene manik chooses dress for her..
    Last night incidents was so horrible.. This scene was so emotional.. My heart goes out for her.. She needs manik more than she ever has now and I just wish I could hold her nd take her pain away.. You so Precisely described nandini’s emotional state.. ☹️☹️☹️

    She appeared so vulnerable in front of Manik and he handled the situation so beautifully… Don’t worry nandini Manik tmko theek karega.. I know ur not fine just believe him Nandini, everything will be alright.. He was so vulnerable of what he saw his nandini’s state.. He felt helpless but he could console Nandini.. She was like lost soul in last night painful memories..

    Manik was a biggest support to her and this whole situation when she was not able to take decision in her right state of mind.. He was that support she needed at that time.. She could understand what he was asking her with his promises, like they understood each other’s silent talk.. To see strong, nd fearful nandini face vulnerable situation was quite experience and manik’s support and understanding through out the whole chapter is remarkable 😍😍😍

    Why nandini ko lagta hai vo dirty ho gyi n all nandini believe him manik sab thk kar dega.. Time sab heal kar deta hai.. Haaye so much loving this scene Nandini ur so lucky.. How sweet n adorable scene.. Right now I want manik 🙈🙈😍😍

    Ahhhh yeyyy… I am so happy Yess I am so happy for both of them..!!! Finally manik confesses his love feeling, his emotions.. How happy u make me I can’t explain.. This was the best confession from manik side.. Ab aage Nandini ka reaction dekhna hai.. I just hope everything goes well now 🙂 🙂 🙂 Nandini ke ans ka desperately wait.. 😍😍

    You never fail to leave us wanting for more.. 🙂
    The emotions are so raw.. Many a times they are unsaid, just felt silently by the characters and that touches me too..
    Again there are a thousand questions about them but this one suspicion is the biggest.. Nandini ka kya reaction hoga?? If a separation of heart is near??? Maybe not in distance terms but maybe in heart and gestures !!!!
    Loved it like always and now you have assured us one thing it’s more fun to read them.. 😊😊

    Loved this about you!!! You know what the readers want (quality manik nandini moments) so you deliver them as well as the content suitable for the plot and situation…. This has never been a totally Romance goofy love story but a deep, down to earth work of you with such beautiful plot… Heads like mine never imagine such a beautiful plot but u have designed one and delivered and delivering it in a manner that has attracted so many people towards “LoVe Or SiN”..
    You go girl.. !!!! You are gonna reach heights..!!!!
    Without a doubt Love Or Sin one of my most favorite book 😍😍😍

    Allah Bless you.. Keep spreading beautiful things.. 😍😍❤❤

    I Love You.. ❤❤❤

    Gudiya 💋💋

    Liked by 1 person

    • Thank you so much darling 😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️. I am so so happy.. that you are loving this so much meri gudiya… 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻. Love you a lot baby❤️❤️❤️😍😍😍😍😍😍❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

      Liked by 1 person

  5. Seriously so emotional and heart braking but at the end you got me nervous seriously aisa lag raha hain ki manik nahi balki uski jagah main nandu ke answer ka wait kar rahi hoon seriously I have a mix emotions right now seriously ki ek taraf I am so happy ki finally he confessed but on the other side I am so confused what is her answer beacause he loves her then why he didn’t tell this before why now beacause of that incident seriously I so scared you know naa

    Liked by 1 person

      • Wahi to kar rahi hoo suru se yaar aab nahi ho raha mere se seriously aab full stop laga do iss pain par main yeh chahti hoon but please don’t listen me ok beacause yeh story hain but aagar real life hoti naa to yeh kabhi Aapne hisab se change nahi hoti so miss writer Aapne Jo socha hain wahi karna and I am ready to read every part beacause I seriously love this beacause jarori nahi ki life main hamesha Acha hi ho life main Jo hota hain ache ke liye hi hota hain so I am ready and seriously love main pain naa ho to Maza nahi aata aab is pain ki aadat ho gayi hain

        Liked by 1 person

  6. Awesome update…..

    I loved the way manik comfort nandini by being her side ..and finally manik confessed .
    Hahahah i want to see nevourse manik.

    Now eager how will nandini react .is gonna cry or happy.only u know so pls Update pls …

    Lots of love .
    Take care.
    And thank you for update💓💓❤❤❤

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s