(Part: 15) Burning Desires (Sidnaaz)
I opened my eyes as soon as direct sunlight hit my closed eyes.
Instantly my eyes darted at my side just to look at the most precious moment of my life.
He is sleeping beside me, just like a baby, wrapping his one hand around my waist caging me securely.
A small smile appeared on my lips. Though it’s not the first time I’m waking up beside him, but still it’s feels something more different, purer and more powerful.
This is the most beautiful morning of my life.
How much lucky I am to have him in my life, I can’t even describe in words.
I lovingly kept gazing at his handsome face and my smile grew bigger.
Yesterday night, whatever he said, whatever he did, feels like heaven.
I raised one hand and caressed his features with my fingers. He flinched a bit and snuggled more to me placing his head almost near to my neck. I closed my eyes feeling him that much close.
My hands run through his hair and ruffled it a bit. I looked down still seeing him asleep.
I had a sudden urge to kiss him hard as my eyes fell on his sexy lips.
Of course, I can!
I’m his forever, and he’s mine always.
I titled my head more and placed a soft kiss on his cheek. Instantly, he groaned in sleep, pulling me more closer to his body, almost sandwiching both of us.
I again closed my eyes feeling him closer to me. This feeling is heavenly beautiful.
I never thought that someday I would experience so much of peace. My lips are drawn up in a contented smile.
I don’t know what happened to me that suddenly tears rolled down my eyes and it directly landed on his face.
I hastily swept my eyes down and sighed as I saw him sleeping peacefully. I rubbed his face with my thumb and sighed wrapping my hands around his waist, closing my eyes and digging my face in his chest. It is so soothing to listen to his heartbeat.
After a few minutes, I opened my eyes once again and saw him gazing deep in my eyes.
Damn! He was awake!
His eyes are speaking volumes!
I could see lots of questions in his eyes but more than that I could see concern for me.
“Sidharth,” I started… but he cut my words.
“Good morning, Shehnaaz.” He whispered and moved away a strand of hair from my face, I closed my eyes, getting lost in his touch.
So many thoughts again started coming in front of my eyes.
And I uttered…
“Good morning,” I whispered and moved a strand of hair from her face and she closed her eyes at my touch.
Tough I wanted to ask so many things, but I can’t.
I can’t force her.
I want her to share her pain, but I’m feeling so helpless right now.
Her tears affected me to the core.
I know there are so many things that will be running in her mind and I can’t do anything.
I’m staring at her face intensely, trying to read her emotions.
“Why are you with me, Sidharth?” She whispered in a shaky voice and I shook my head in disbelief.
Seriously? After yesterday’s night too, she’s asking me this?
Definitely, she’s bipolar!
“You really wanted me to answer this? Don’t you know?”
And she kept staring at me, mused.
“Remember, you had asked me about a “Forever”. I whispered after cupping her face in my palm and continued gazing in her Hazel eyes, ” so listen, I don’t know what’s the meaning of forever in your dictionary Shehnaaz, but for me, you’re the meaning of my Forever,” I spoke from the core of my heart, meaning each and every single word.
Her eyes widened like I was unreal or something.
“Really?” She asked in a meek voice and I nodded, with a small smile. There was a long silence before she spoke.
“Growing up, I never had any kind of love and affection from my parents. They always kept fighting.” I froze as she spoke.
She is finally telling me something about her life and I just can’t believe that it is actually happening. I kept lying there beside her, not saying a word, holding her firmly and closer to myself.
She continued, ” I used to feel suffocated in my own house, there was not even a single day which I had spent peacefully. Hearing them shouting at each other from my room, every now and then literally had broken me to the core. Soon, my parents got divorced and started leaving separate lives. They didn’t even for once thought about me. They hardly noticed me and I kept switching back and forth between my mom and dad until I was eighteen. They only paid for my school. Thankfully, I got a scholarship for college and I finally moved out. After that, I was pretty much on my own. They hardly visited me but still, I had a hope to get my family back but my that hope too crashed down when I saw my mother marrying the guy who’s an only year older than me. That day in the bar, where I met you, I-I was coming from my mom’s wedding.” she whispered, and a lone tear escaped down her soft cheek, I quickly wiped it, caressing her face. My heart broke as I listened to her. I want nothing but to hug her tightly and tell that I’m there for her and no matter what I will always be there for her.
This woman is stronger than I ever imagined!
“I’m always here for you, Shehnaaz. Just let it out. Let it all out, my love, this is the last time you’re crying because of your past.” I whispered, looking straight into her eyes, engulfing her tighter in my strong arms. I just want to take away her all pain with this hug.
“You’re so strong and independent because of everything you went through, baby. All I can say is that your parents missed the chance of getting to know an amazing person.” I tried to cheer her up and hope that I’m doing a good job. She smiled widely, touching my face.
“You’re my heaven, Mr Shukla.” She whispered.
Now I get that… Why it’s so hard for you to trust someone.
“I trust you, Sidharth. I trust you with all my heart.” She whispered, gazing deep in my eyes, and I’m finally understanding her better and it only made me fall for her even harder.
“I’m sorry for freaking out that morning, you were right. I’m a coward.” She said and pouted, making me laugh.
“Yes, you behaved so badly, I had prepared coffee for you too, and you were looking so sexy on that bathrobe. Damn!” I uttered, running my hands against her arms.
“I said I was sorry. It was hard for me too,” She slapped my arms playfully with a smile on her face and my heart brimmed with happiness.
God, I want to make her smile always.
“And about that bathrobe, I’ll make it up for you,” She whispered, coming closer to my face. As my gaze fell on her parted sensuous lips, I hastily kissed her with so much need. She kissed me back, running her hands through my hair. My hands pushed her dress up and I slipped my tongue, exploring every inch of her mouth while I’m playing around her inner thighs, slowly, and I’m loving the feel of her skin which is so soft and smooth like butter and she kept squirming beneath me.
“Are you sure, you won’t leave me again?” I asked between the kisses and she smiled at me.
“Are you sure you can handle me? I can be too much to deal with,” She smirked, raising her eyebrows and I let out a small chuckle.
That’s my girl!
“I wasn’t going to settle for anything less, baby girl.” I winked, kissing her neck and she started to giggle, pushing me away.
“Stop! We will be late for office, Sidharth.” She whined between her laugh and I buried my face in her neck.
“Let’s skip work today,” I whispered and she chuckled.
“Can’t Mister, I have a very important meeting today.” She said, ruffling my hair.
“Okay… Baba” I pouted and got up, helping her too.
“I’ll drop you to the apartment, actually I’ll be late today because I had to go to the meeting at one cafe,” I told her.
“Okay, I’ll be waiting for you.” She whispered, engulfing me in a beautiful hug, making me smile.